Nothing matters



It was a really bad day.  I managed to make it to my car after walking out of the building when I left work before breaking down in tears but that’s about the best thing that can be said.

I miss them.  So much.  It makes it more horrible when I’m at work because one of them is literally just a few yards away but it might as well be hundreds of miles.

No, I haven’t read that text I got last Wednesday.  I haven’t deleted it either.  I have no reason to think that it might contain anything positive though so, there it will sit, unread, until I feel like I can really let go.  Then I’ll delete it.

Yesterday, I felt pretty good.  Today, nothing fucking matters.  I just want this to end.  I don’t care how at this point.